Also, an introduction.
It’s here! My first post, and if you are reading this, I want to take a moment to say thank you from the very bottom of my heart. Actually, my whole being is screaming THANK YOU because this has been something on my heart for so long, and you are here for the big day. And that means the most to me.
That said, I wanted to ease us into the deep stuff and give you a chance to know me a bit better, and I thought one of the best ways to do that would be by giving you the low-down on my logo and telling you a little story about how I changed it LAST MINUTE! Without further ado, I present to you, my first post.
If you are here, you probably already know me (that’s me, the unbeareded adult, in that picture at the top) and have been bombarded with posts and reminders and other such nonsense to get you to read this very post. And if you already know me, you know that my name is Kat, I’m married with two kids, and I love Jesus. So I’d like to share a few more things you probably do NOT know, but that you should, because I’m gonna write about them, and probably frequently.
1. I suffer from clinical depression.
At some point, I will share my journey to receiving this diagnosis, but basically, I want you to know that I, like millions of people all over the world, struggle with depression. It’s more than feeling sad, and I’ll write about that too, because it’s important. But it’s nothing to be ashamed of, and I hope to change the conversation about this and mental illness in general. That said, my suffering has created a space for compassion I did not have before and helped me recognize anew my desperate need for Jesus. In fact, it actually brought me to have the Roman numerals VII:XLVII tattooed on my left wrist, to remind me always of my need for forgiveness. In those moments where I find myself leaning toward judgment, Luke 7:47 has called me to love as I’ve been loved.
“Therefore, I tell you, her many sins have been forgiven – as her great love has shown. But whoever has been forgiven little loves little.” – Luke 7:47 NIV
2. I love cats. I think I might be one, on the inside.
Just kidding. I mean, I really do love cats! I even managed to convert my husband into a cat-lover, though he will probably never admit that aloud. Thanks to him, we have two sweet kitties (pictured below), though he also blames me for that fact. If former lives existed (spoiler alert, they don’t), then I would firmly believe I used to be a cat. Just pet me (but only on my terms) and feed me treats and we’ll be pals, basically.
3. I used to work retail, and it was kind of awful.
I’ve seen real ugliness in the world, and I struggle to like people in general, as a result. If you’ve worked retail, you probably don’t particularly like people either. You know what though? I’ve also met some genuinely kind souls, and working retail was a great exercise in humility and unconditional love. So even though I don’t really jump at the chance to hang out with strangers, if given the chance, I will find something to love about them. Because I’ve seen my own ugliness, and I know we’re all just doing the best we can. That said, I try not to get too hung up on what other people think of me. Not in a “I’ll treat you how I want to without thought to your feelings” type of way, but in a “I’m living for Jesus imperfectly and I know who I am” type of way. Paul wrote one of my favorite verses in the Bible. It’s one I’ve often leaned on for encouragement in the face of fierce disagreements with those who don’t share my beliefs.
“Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ.” – Galatians 1:10
4. I am a stay at home mom.
To quote someone much wiser and far more eloquent than me (shout out to you, Ashley!), “being a mom is the hardest job I’ve ever loved.” My husband works long weeks and long hours to make sure that I get to be the one taking care of our kids, but this journey is a challenge, and I’d be lying if I said there weren’t days I wished I could just go to work at a job that didn’t involve calming down a tantrum-throwing three-year-old, wiping poop off teeny tushies, and cleaning constantly without making a dent in the mess. In the heat of battle, God has taught me so much about myself, life, and my need for him through this, and I am excited to share this journey with you all.
5. I believe Jesus died for my sins, and yours, too!
If you’ve taken the time to read my “home” and “about” pages, and you’ve made it this far in my first post, you’ve probably already figured this out. But it deserves special mention because I firmly believe that, as a sinner who’s been saved, I have received the greatest gift of all. So I want you to know that, when I talk about Jesus, salvation, scripture, or faith, it’s not because I’m trying to save you. That’s not my job. I’m talking about those things because I’ve been given joy for life, no matter the circumstances, and I just want to share it! That’s it. This is my journey, and I’m inviting you to come along with me.
On that note, let me tell you the story of changing my logo design LAST MINUTE!
I spent hours creating my logo, drawing and re-drawing to make sure it was just right. It had a cute little house doodle and a symbol I wear around my neck almost daily. I even had an entire post written about all the specific symbolism behind it. But then I realized I was trying way, way too hard. Ever been there? I find myself in that spot more often than I care to admit, and you’d think I’d learn my lesson! Alas, here I am, being schooled on the futile struggle for perfection once again.
First, I’d like to share the meaning behind my name.
- Explained literally, my name is Kat and I prefer to be indoors. I don’t like bugs and I tend to find things in nature that make me itch. Plus, heat is terrible because there are only so many layers you can remove before things get awkward (and possibly illegal).
- There is also a word play in my name: as mentioned previously, we have two cats! (Their names are Tonks and Lupin for any die-hard Harry Potter fans out there.) They are indoor cats. *insert pointed chuckle here* Get it?
- And then, we have the spiritual meaning. I’ll have a post on this later, but in essence, I’ve struggled for most of my life with vanity. Becoming a mom to two kids and marrying a man who accepts me no matter what I look like have been just two of the many ways God has taught me to love my spirit more than my body, while still caring for that body in a way that doesn’t put so much emphasis on its appearance. Beauty is a social construct; God created every single person on the planet, and God doesn’t make garbage. This blog is going to focus primarily on matters of the heart, or the “indoor” matters of being human.
That spiritual meaning is the reason I decided to scrap all the extras and strip the design down to just the name and a heart. Heart shapes have long been used to represent love in all its forms, and thanks to the built-in cross (it’s the “t” in “kat”), I have the symbols for love in all the ways that mean the most to me.
BUT WAIT, THERE’S MORE!
As I’m sure you’ve already noticed, my logo does not, in fact, have a heart in it. That is because, as today grew closer, I realized that a simple heart didn’t fully encompass what I wanted to accomplish with this blog. So, I started reflecting on verses that have meant a great deal to me in my faith walk and, two nights before launch, an extremely fitting set came to mind.
“Therefore everyone who hears these words of mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man who built his house on the rock. (25)The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house; yet it did not fall, because it had its foundation on the rock.” – Matthew 7:24-25
My walk isn’t perfect. But my house is on the rock, so even though I stumble, I know Jesus will help me keep walking every single time.
That’s it for this post! I hope you’ll follow along with me on this crazy ride of motherhood, womanhood, friendship, and faith! If you haven’t yet, make sure you click the “follow” button so you can be notified when new posts are up, and please drop a comment below to say hi! Thank you so much for being here! I love you!
Featured photo by the lovely and talented Brittany Silverio. View more of her work here.
Logo designed by the incredible Macy Lynn Art. Visit her Etsy shop to view more of her work here.